Great Ambitions for 2010

I have great ambitions for 2010 . I learned so much about myself in 2009. I grew more and learned more this past year more than any other year that I have been alive. I have come to realize that my now is very powerful and if not controlled I can lose everything, but in the same sense, I can gain everything I have ever wanted. I must live in the present, plan for the future and leave the past in the past. It is great to look back at what you have accomplished and see where you have been, but never relive past failures or base your life on what you have always done, because it is a trap, a vicious loop and before you know it, its ten years later.

The Passing Year

The new year brings a great opportunity to make your life better. You consciously see what you don't like about your life and you can leave your old habits and everything you don't want in the passing year. It is like taking out the trash. Most people focus on what they want out of the new year. What they are going to change about themselves. they do not realize that before you can change your ways you have to leave them behind. empty your closet, clear out your garage, dump your garbage. With that, you'll have a clean slate to create a new you in the New year.

What makes people great?

Many people have far exceeded greatness while others struggle or maintain the status quo. In sports, it is easy to see great talent achieve greatness and in business people also tend to be great by simply owning their own successful business. But what gets them to that level. I have come to believe it is their ability to focus on what is going on now. The here and now is so powerful, you can be the very best you can be. You can be the person you are, not what everyone thinks you are. We tend to rush through our day but the joy of life is your work and if you get no joy from what you do, then you have the ability to change it. Right now is the most important time of your life. You decide, that’s your power. The next time you’re at the mall, stop and watch people for a minute. See how upset the people who are in a rush are and look how peaceful others are enjoying the now. Don’t be in such a hurry to die, do something great today, even if you are the only one that knows.

What is the wake?

What is the wake? It is the trail you leave behind. Who is driving the boat? What makes life go in this direction? At this present moment, energy is being generated by the engine and nothing more. Is it possible for the wake to drive the boat? Can a trail that has been left behind drive the boat? Get out of the wake. It’s an illusion.

Traditions or Senses

As we enter another holiday season, I can feel a real sense of amazement watching my kids do the same exact things I had done when I was their age. It makes me think if my dad acted the same way and if his father and so on. It reminds me of some show I watched about the Mayan people. Their traditions were past down from generation to generation. It makes me think if we are born with these traditions or senses like the birds that migrate South for the winter or life on the Serengeti . if this is true, what else can be past down or what else were we born with?
We were born from a tiny cell into a living being we must have been born with an imprint of data stored somewhere in our brains to give us knowledge, advice, and warnings.
When danger is present in our lives you can feel changes in our bodies, a sense of fear consumes every thought in our consciousness. This was a tool that early man needed. Today, we use it more as an excuse to avoid doing things we don’t want to do.
Often, I ask myself what should I do in situations that I have no idea what I should do. Somehow the answers pop into my head like some kind of genius. I am amazed every time. I am far from a genius more like a nut case; I guess that is why I ask myself questions. I find that I can figure out problems or find solutions just by asking myself. Somehow it comes to me or someone is put into my path that can help me.
The biggest resource that we are given is the knowledge that is past down to us from birth. Right now, at the age of 38, I can feel mass amounts of knowledge opening up inside my head. If we are all the same and we were all made in the image of God, we should have the ability to have knowledge that would make our lives exactly the way we want them.

Game Plan

I played golf with a real PGA golf professional one afternoon. He was unbelievable. He told me that you need to have a game plan to succeed at the game. Your head has to be totally involved with this plan. Your focus is not on your game but on handling distractions. Your game is your ability to do the job, to trust everything you have learned. Most people fail because they’re are caught up in all the mistakes they make, instead of staying with their plan. The problem is that most people do not have a game plan. They get out there and try to wing it. they start out with the intentions of being fantastic and how well they know they can do, but that first drive into the rough immediately takes there focus on how bad that was and how bad it’s going to be the rest of the way. He said that he’s played with people that have tremendous abilities but can’t get out of their own way. We played for only nine holes but I will take more than watching him hit some amazing shots. I will take life lessons on how to take this advice and apply it to my life in general.

What we are

“Man surrounds himself with the true image of himself. Every spirit builds itself a house and beyond its house a world, and beyond its world a heaven. Know then that the world exists for you. For you the phenomenon is perfect. What we are, that only can we see. All that Adam had, all that Caesar could, you have and can do. Adam called his house, heaven and earth. Caesar called his house, Rome; you perhaps call yours a construction trade; a land lord, or a teacher or student. Yet line for line and point for point, your dominion is as great as theirs, though without fine name. Build therefore your own world. As fast as you conform your life to the pure idea in your own mind, that will unfold its great proportion.”

Emerson

It’s not what happens to YOU

I feel a sense of Belief in ordinary people when it comes to what’s right and what is wrong in the world today. Most people are happy and content with their lives. Others are out to make a quick buck and don’t care about how they get it as long as it fills their pocket no matter who is hurt in the process. I believe that we all are going around and around like the way the earth revolves around the Sun. We relive our lives just like our fathers did and their fathers before them. The only difference is our rights as human beings are being reduced just like our value of money. My mistakes as a man are the same mistakes as my father and my fathers, father. It is easy to see that a system of government was setup to consistently rely on this merry-go-round effect, this pass it on mentality. As parents, we all want what’s best for our children but we tend to want what’s best for ourselves first. At least for me, I’d rather enjoy good company than spend an hour talking with my own boys.
My boys are a wonderful gift and I neglect their company. I’d rather watch the big game and ignore the fact that they sit beside me playing soldiers just wanting to be near me. what am I really doing? I am enslaving him to follow in my footsteps? To show him that this is what you do to your sons when you’re a Dad, just like my dad did to me and his dad did to him. I put too much emphasis on entertainment and amusement than the pursuit of activities that will help develop my kids into what I really want them to be, unlike me or my father.
Children learn by example, and tend to emulate the actions of their parents. Actions are the direct results of thought. We premeditate our actions and our actions are presented to all who can see. We all choose exactly what we want out of life and is past down to us by the actions we learned as kids or young adults. That’s why we tend to go into the family business or take on a trade that we admire from those who were influential to us, or if we were lucky, we were encouraged to go to college.
My examples were to enjoy your weekends by getting drunk as hell and seeking all the entertainment possible in a 2 day weekend and thank heaven for those 3 days off because then I can seek even more entertainment. All I really have done is to teach my boys how to party. I am the poster boy for how to enslave a citizen past, present, and future!
It is not too late for me and my kids. I have found an inner strength that I had no idea I had. Is the gift of consciousness. I decide what I can and can’t do. Just because I’m dared or pressured doesn’t mean I have to. I read in someone’s Facebook wall that they woke up happy for the first time and did not know why. He wasn’t upset like usual. I believe influences are the key component that takes us from inner control to outer control. I must block these Bad influences from controlling my actions. I must learn to react the way I want to react. Like Epictetus said, “It’s not what happens to YOU, but how YOU react to it that matters”.
I am not the type of person to share my thoughts and experiences to those I don’t know, but I am someone that has always has known that some way somehow I was going to positively change the world. And my hopes are that some way if I can change myself it can contribute into changing a small portion of this vast universe. Thank you for reading and if you know me, don’t hold it against me.
Romans

To Do It All Over Again

While growing up, I had a fascination with how your voice could be heard through wires, also how images could be transmitted through the air. I took a chance and faked a resume. I lied and said I had experience, that I went to a trade school, and that I had tools for the trade. During the interview I was asked numerous questions that I had no idea what they were. Not even half way through the interview the manager told me I had no idea about this field. He called in the owner of the company. After hearing what the manger had to say, the owner looked at me as if he was looking into my soul for a while and said, hire him he’s hungry! Sometimes not knowing what to do and putting yourself out there risking your pride is enough to get what you want. After 20 years in telecommunications, I had my own company, right now I’m working as a middle manager in a large corporation and once again going to restart my business. I’m putting myself out there again, this time I am competent as well as confident. I failed my first time as a business owner, but instead of turning away with my tail between my legs, I’m taking my experiences and going for it again. I have the same feeling when I went for the interview . although I lied about what I had done, I know what I could do if given a chance. We all have that in us, that winning spirit, that burning desire to win.
Some people often say if they had a chance to do it all over again it would be different. I believe we all still have that in us. to start again and again and again and again if needed no matter how old or young you think you are. The only advice I would give to my younger self would be to focus attention on what you want, anything else is a distraction. I remember going out on a Friday and coming home on a Monday, just going with the flow. How many of us just go with the flow not realizing that you can control the flow by focusing on what you want to do and holding that attention firmly.
Everything that we have everything that we are is a collection of things that we have focused on in the past. We relive our lives again and again and again. For some people that’s fine. For others like myself, it’s a trap. The only way to free yourself is to focus your attention on things that break the cycle. for me, it’s starting to walk or jog every morning for the rest of my life. Instead of sleeping that extra hour I get up and walk, I clear my thoughts, I focus my attention on what I want to accomplish that day. Before walking, I would get to work pissed about the traffic and anything else that directed my moods and attention. Now, I wake up in control and stay in control by focusing and being aware of what I want handling distractions rather than distractions handling me.

Searching For What You Already Are

Life has many challenges, sometimes you’re up and sometimes you’re down. Life, It is a ride. A ride that is similar to everyone in this country. We all have the same liberties here in the US. What we don’t realize is that we are all being manipulated in to thinking the same thoughts, brought to us by mass media. I often wonder why I always make the same mistakes. Why I drink even if I don’t want to. Why because somehow our subconscious thoughts are being programmed to wanting a better house, having the nicest boat, having the nicest camper, having the best job, having a nice car. We want a fairytale life. I never read a book in my life until almost a year ago. Information that you put into your mind takes you out of the media circuit that programs us, programs our subconscious minds.
I have read so far 10 books in 8 months. I stopped watching the news every night. Since then, I haven’t argued with my wife, I haven’t spanked my kids, or haven’t wanted to murder half the people that drive the 91 freeway. I am a happy loving person. My next step is to eliminate fear out of my life that is unwarranted. This fear keeps me drinking at every function I go to. Hey do you want a drink, no, oh, you’re too good to drink with a buddy? Or oh, you’re one of those Jesus freaks? Or yeah buddy, what you say is what you get. I’m afraid of being thought of as one of any of these things. I am so afraid that someone might tell me that my wife wears the pants in the family because I don’t want to drink. How many times have anyone been afraid or got upset when someone told you that? Fear plays a huge role in the manipulation process.
The media tells us what we want to hear not what we need to know. Our whole lives we look to figure out what we want to be, instead of what we already are. (Richard Alpert) a lot of times I tell myself that I am my worst enemy, I feel at war with myself every day. Richard also says that a world at war within its self is doomed!

One man’s agony is another man’s dream

One man’s agony is another man’s dream. One man’s nightmare is another man’s reality. Rich, poor, fat skinny, popular, nerdy, happy, sad, and successful or failure, it is all relevant. How we see ourselves is what’s most important. This directly correlates to our direct relationships with others. People that really matter to us the most, either suffer or benefit by how we feel about ourselves.
I tend to quit when I don’t get my way. If I do not see the kind of results I get frustrated and walk away. It is a terrible trait that I have developed that coincides with my need for quick fixes. It is easy for me to hurt others due to my position at work. I can hire and fire people, I can send someone out of town knowing that this would cause marital issues. I can make someone have a bad day, Bad week, and a bad month. I hate on others because it is a quick fix. When I want to feel good I quickly turn things to show what a hero I am. I get positive attention from the big boss’s; I get in favor with supervisors and employees. My peers even our envious because they seem not to have any control over their personnel. How is it possible for me to be such a devil and angel at will?
My wife is such a wonderful person. She sees the world as endless possibilities. She says we must protect ourselves from predators. The come in all shapes colors and sizes. You can always tell a person’s true quality and integrity not by the kind of car he drives or the house he lives in, but by the kind of kids he is raising, the home he has made and the relationships he endears.
In today’s society, I am considered obese, a smoker, an alcoholic. In the corporate world I am a man on the move. I am a whiz kid. In their eyes I’m a kid although I just turned 38 yrs old in June. Most of the executives are in their sixties. They drink and smoke too much, they’re the walking dead, but they’re all millionaires. They all are passing down knowledge because they know they can’t take it with them and they know it is in their best interests to leave a legacy.
My wish is that I can change my ways. I am blessed with what I have, a wonderful wife, excellent kids, terrific family, and great friends. My need for personal satisfaction, instant gratification, and a desire to win, is sending me to an early grave. I am going to start giving my best to me so I can pass it on to everyone else that loves me, cares about me, because isn’t that what’s life all about?
Each individual, living in or out of sync with the universe;

Your Clandestine Power

We all have been given a gift of consciousness. This separates us from the other animals that roam the earth. We have the ability to choose whatever we want and make our lives our own. But our conscious has influences. See our bodies still have animal instincts; pride, anger, lust, greed, envy, gluttony and sloth. These seven deadly sins are influencing our decisions every single day. Other animal influences are our fight or flight instincts. Our fear warns us from danger. All our senses are in tune with our surroundings and we can see danger, smell danger, hear danger, feel danger, and even taste danger. Our courage kicks in when we believe in ourselves enough to fight. We put our fears behind us and stand in the face of danger or even death.
All these influences some good some bad help us make decisions that keep us at a level that far below where we want to be. We don’t understand why we can never get ahead. Why we fear everything. Why we keep making the same mistakes. Our bodies are still animals. We still have these instincts that are governing our lives. We haven’t made the connection to our high selves, our living spirit, and our power within.
Another gift we all have been given is faith. We use it to believe in our religions throughout the world. It is the belief in the unseen. We have many unseen powers within us, but, our animal instincts resist along with the global beliefs and we are made to believe in what everybody else believes in which is seeing is believing. To break through worldly views we must have faith in ourselves, to trust are own unseen powers and to give our spirit the power to influence our consciousness instead of our animal instincts.
Our spirit has unlimited wisdom. All we have to do is ask, all we have to do is follow, all we have to do is believe, all we have to do is have faith, and all we have to do is act. Letting our own spirit guide us will open up all the opportunities we have been searching for our whole lives. Letting our spirit guide us will provide the comfort you seek when facing your fears. Letting our spirit guide us will give us the courage to fight our own animal instincts that distract us from what we want out of life. Stop being influenced by worldly views and your own animal instincts, have faith in yourself and let your spirit guide you.

The Battle between Body and Spirit

There is a battle going on everyday that begins in the morning and doesn’t end till you fall asleep, a deep sleep. I’m talking about the inner struggle between your body and spirit. This subject has been talked about since humans learned to communicate.
I have been the type of person that goes with the flow. I try to do the right things, I obey the laws and for the most part have been raised with good morals and my character is something that I am very proud of. My friends would say they enjoy my company and that I would do what I could to help them if needed.
Lately, I have been trying to better myself because I want to travel the road that is the most difficult. Why? Because I have heard that this is the road that will have the most reward. The first hurdle I faced was my beliefs. I had doubts that I could do it. My second hurdle was I had to face fears I never had to face before. The hard road you have to get out of your comfort zone. To help my personal development, I began reading.
I found that my spirit that wants to change the world is getting held back by my body that wants to relax. Every time I want to break my own conformity my body resists. Whenever I get a thought about exercise my body says oh the pain, you can’t do it. Whenever I get a thought about an opportunity that could change my life for the better, my body says oh that sounds like a lot of work, oh the rejection, oh I don’t know if I can take that failure right now.
Our spirit commands the body; our spirit is the life energy that makes us different than the any other being on the planet. My spirit was trapped in my body not allowing any change, not allowing any commitment to anything that would take away any free time to chill. Until I learned to command my subconscious put my thoughts and ideas into play and to command my body to do my will. My spirit is the same energy that powered great inventors to create the world the way it is today, that inspired great musicians and artists create master pieces. We all have abilities that lay dormant because we allow our bodies to control our lives instead of allowing our spirit’s to command our destinies.

Desire

I believe that desire is the true driving force in this world. Everything that we use started as a thought and became a desire to make it real. We all benefit from Mr. Fords desire to make the automobile. My desire is to change the world. I’m not sure how I’m going to do it. I just know that it has been a dream of mine since I was a boy. A teacher asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I remember saying I wanted to change the world. The teacher said how? I said I don’t want people to cry. The only reason that I could think of why I said that was I didn’t want others to suffer.
People have the ability to do unbelievable feats. Mine is to change the world. I’m starting with me. When I change it will show others that they can change. The knowledge is out there and the desire is in us to accomplish our greatest thoughts. What’s great about human beings is that we are all the same in the way we do things. We are creatures of habit, but where we differ is we all have different thoughts and desires. The key is finding a place where we can all transfer our thoughts and desires to be able to get feedback and encouragement.
I am building that place. I am building a site that people can post their desires and look for positive feedback and encouragement. This site will be a place to ask for advice from those of us that experienced the exact situation somebody might be going through. This site will mentor those of us looking to be mentored. If you’re looking for opportunities you will find them. It will be a site that will help you get through the tuff times and it will be a site that you can help people get through the tuff times. It just feels good to help others and it feels good to get help, genuine help.

Omens

I have been trying to figure out the Law of Attraction and all the great people I have met since watching "The Secret" and found that I put it out there in the Universe that I want to earn Millions of dollars and I wanted to start out by having $100,000 in my bank account by the end of the year. Well, I met a guy with a tremendous opportunity, (I try to always keep my options open, right) I put that in my mind as an omen, WOW, I want to earn this money and now I have the vehicle to generate what I want. I then happen to meet my best friend from High School. As far as property, money, secure employment, and all the toys we had always talked about he has earned them. It is funny though, I get the sense that he envy's me for the love I found with my wife. And I envy him for all that he has been able to accomplish. I get strength from him just by sharing thoughts and ideas about opportunities.
Have you ever shared with friend’s thoughts and ideas? You can actually feel the buzz filling the room. Same kind of buzz when you meet your soul mate, or when your children are brought into this world. It is our selves being creators. That is what we were put here on earth to do, is create! Whether making babies or creating new vaccines to cure diseases or even creating a new power source. Creation is the foundation of our lives and it all starts with a thought. Where the average person gets stuck is we do not have any idea how to transfer thoughts. Is it possible to transfer thoughts without saying anything at all?
See, my friend never said anything about being envious of me, but I know and I never said anything to him about envying him about what he has accomplished but he knows. I really don’t like that word so let’s say admire instead. Anyway, is there a universal language that is spoken? Are we being guided from danger and do we abuse this by fearing life? Do we act on hunches? Maybe we have the volume turned way down because we don’t want to miss a warning of potential DANGER! Are we supposed to act when our senses of desire are pinging off the scale or do we let them pass in time?
We are taught to trust our gut instincts, but do we? We are taught to avoid danger and to be safe, but at what cost? We are taught to be responsible and to fill our needs but my needs are far different from my wants and desires. I want a boat, but need to make my mortgage payment. I want to travel, but I need to go to work to pay my bills. Who has time to know or even care if there is a universal language?
I believe we all have a path and that path is created by our wants and desires. We are all being guided by a force attracting and repelling us, our thoughts are being picked up by likeminded people we call friends. Our desires are being sacrificed due to circumstances that we believe that our out of our control and that our paths are predetermined so conformity becomes the norm. My desires are simple, that people feel the joy of life every day. I spent many years angry, upset, and very hateful, full of regret and bitterness. As I start to be aware and realize that my path is not where I am going but where I’m at and I can only control right now, not tomorrow , not yesterday, but now, and I have a guide to show me signs, I have the laws of the universe attracting my want and desires, I have my determination to help me work hard, most of all, I have joy in my heart given to me by the love of my family that I take with me and I experience this joy every moment of my now.

Assumptions

I have been taught my whole life never to assume anything, it only makes an ASS out of U and ME! In reading books for the last few months trying to learn more about how to change myself for the better i found an interesting book on the law of Assumption. this law says that if you make an assumption on any wish you desire, and if you make it real every night and every morning you will make the assumption come true. This caught my attention, it also said that if you were not satisfied with your current circumstances, you have the power to change those as well by assuming better circumstances. Thoughts are power and if you make your thoughts real you can make them a reality.
Well, people I do not know, I am going to put this law into affect. See I have a couple of assumptions about myself that I would to wish for. I am terrible at setting goals, I hate to admit this but I seldom finish what I start. Anyway, here it goes.
I wish that I will lose 60lbs in 6 months. right now I weigh 286 lbs. and today's date is April 7th, 2009, so in six months on October 6th 2009 I will weigh 226lbs.
I have been trying to lose weight for years, I have tried diet, exercise, only to give up because I am so busy. I swear, I am the busiest, fatiest, broke guy on the planet.
Well, let's see if this law is for real because I actually tried the law of Attraction, I have a vision board and everything but the only things that come seem to be coincidences. I would like to believe in it but until I see a million dollars in my bank I will still consider them as coincidences.

If you would like to see my results I will try to figure how to post pictures or try to build a site to keep track, maybe I should make an assumption about that as well?
until next week or so,

see ya!

Romans