As I kiss my wife goodbye this morning, I refilled my coffee
cup and headed to the backyard to have a smoke. Then wash the smell off and I
lie down and watch my shows that I’ve been waiting to see all week. I forget
that my truck needs service, the yard needs work, my garage is a wreck, I haven't been to the gym in a week and I
need to login to work and clear my Que. What am I doing?
This has become my
routine, my living experience!! So many things I can do but I choose to do the
same things each time I come home from working out of town. I forget that I
promised myself that I wasn’t going to smoke anymore! That I was going to make
the most of my days off! If I am in control of my life, to do whatever I want,
why then do I not do what I want?
I can come up with
a ton of conspiracies that our minds are being controlled by the elite! But in
reality I choose. It’s up to me to break the routine, the same experience. We
have many powers that lay dormant until we forget their there, we forget that
we even have these powers.
; Will power,
focus, consistency, determination, desire, passion, enthusiasm, momentum, perseverance,
imagination and the power of thought. Not to mention all the positive emotions
that gives us strength!!
At times I am a
coward, hiding behind fear. I must remember the times that I defeated fear! I
was scared to death to take my contractor’s license exam. I had to pay for the
course and then I had to pay for the exam. Then, if I passed, I’d have to pay all
the insurances and bonds. I made myself sick just thinking of it the night
before the exam. But I persevered. Everything worked out. At the time I didn’t know
how but it did! Fear of the unknown, the fear of success, fear of change, is
all unreal! It doesn’t exist until we make it real we give it power over
ourselves! I have everything at my command! I cannot be afraid to do anything
and I cannot be afraid if I actually accomplish what I set out to do!
In the past few
years I have come to the conclusion that life can be taken away at any monument.
I almost died in a car accident but I survived, I survived the worst mass
shooting in history! I have asked myself several times WHY? The only thing left
is to tell my story my experience, as a being, having this amazing human
experience!!!