My Routine

    As I kiss my wife goodbye this morning, I refilled my coffee cup and headed to the backyard to have a smoke. Then wash the smell off and I lie down and watch my shows that I’ve been waiting to see all week. I forget that my truck needs service, the yard needs work, my garage is a wreck, I haven't been to the gym in a week and  I need to login to work and clear my Que. What am I doing?

   This has become my routine, my living experience!! So many things I can do but I choose to do the same things each time I come home from working out of town. I forget that I promised myself that I wasn’t going to smoke anymore! That I was going to make the most of my days off! If I am in control of my life, to do whatever I want, why then do I not do what I want?

   I can come up with a ton of conspiracies that our minds are being controlled by the elite! But in reality I choose. It’s up to me to break the routine, the same experience. We have many powers that lay dormant until we forget their there, we forget that we even have these powers.

  

  ; Will power, focus, consistency, determination, desire, passion, enthusiasm, momentum, perseverance, imagination and the power of thought. Not to mention all the positive emotions that gives us strength!!

   

  At times I am a coward, hiding behind fear. I must remember the times that I defeated fear! I was scared to death to take my contractor’s license exam. I had to pay for the course and then I had to pay for the exam. Then, if I passed, I’d have to pay all the insurances and bonds. I made myself sick just thinking of it the night before the exam. But I persevered. Everything worked out. At the time I didn’t know how but it did! Fear of the unknown, the fear of success, fear of change, is all unreal! It doesn’t exist until we make it real we give it power over ourselves! I have everything at my command! I cannot be afraid to do anything and I cannot be afraid if I actually accomplish what I set out to do!

   

  In the past few years I have come to the conclusion that life can be taken away at any monument. I almost died in a car accident but I survived, I survived the worst mass shooting in history! I have asked myself several times WHY? The only thing left is to tell my story my experience, as a being, having this amazing human experience!!!